I’d like to say that 2013 was a banner year. I can’t.
December found me struggling. Mostly emotionally. Some physical ailments followed. It seemed as if I had sunken into a swamp of uncertainty, due to circumstances, both within and without. A new—or was it old?—crop of feelings was emerging from that dark, mucky water.
Then, I remembered that sometimes, on your way to somewhere else, the journey is marked by things that are far from pleasant. Emotions bubble up like some unpalatable brew roiling about in a witch’s cauldron. Even with the best of intentions, that noxious substance seemed to infuse each and every cell with stagnation.
Stress techniques helped, but it wasn’t enough. As often as possible, I remembered to sit and observe, knowing that the vapours would clear out, removed by some mysterious winds of change.
These last three days have been considerably and notably better. I feel like Marianna/Auntie Stress, again. In a post entitled My 3 Words for 2014, my #SummitFriend, Jacqui Barrett-Poindexter, shares her three words for 2014. When she asked me to share my three words, I didn’t even have to think about it – Learn, Change and Grow. (Capital letters required.)
It turns out that those winds of change aren’t so mysterious after all. During those Swamp Days, I used some familiar tools from my trusty Toolbox of Health and Wellness, which likely prevented me from slipping completely under the surface. I know that change and growth can be accompanied by malcontent – sometimes you need to sit in it for a while to realize it stinks. Even though it may not feel like it, something new is being fertilized. For me, it was several a-ha’s, strung together like pearls, that led me to realize that I had some unmet needs.
As I worked through stuff and stuff worked through me, I added to my Toolbox. (I do like to play with something new. 🙂 ) Coupled with the start of a new year, hope began to seep in; as things shifted, I felt more buoyant. Bring on 2014!
Wishing you a Happy New Year! May it bring you what you want, but more importantly, what you need.
How will you work towards addressing your needs?